A Rumination on a School Year Beginning

A while back, I opined on my daughter wrapping up her first grade year, voicing some concerns that I had at the time. In the years since, we’ve moved cities and therefore schools for my daughter, and she’s done well for herself in her new setting. Indeed, my daughter started fourth grade today, pleasing me no small amount; I’m glad to have helped her to get this far, and to have helped her get where she is in fairly good shape and with availed-upon access to a number of enrichment activities (theatre programs, day-camps, sleep-away camp, and a couple of weekend excursions) that I hope will stand her in good stead as she moves forward, not only into the new school year just begun, but in her life beyond and outside school.

Truer than may be good.
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That I am looking outside the schoolhouse walls might come as a bit of a surprise coming from me, given my own long formal studies and the time I spent at the front of several classrooms. Clearly, I am invested in formal education, and clearly, I believe in its essential value, irrespective of concerns of marketability and future earnings. (Clearly.) And, indeed, my higher education led me to my wife and, in time, to my beloved daughter; the best parts of my life, I owe to having studied where and when and what I studied. I cannot in good conscience deny that there is value in taking the time to learn and think and study and become that I had.

But I also acknowledge that my own path to arrive where I am has not been ideal; I am and remain tens of thousands of dollars in debt because of the choices I have made, and while I accept the justice of the price I pay for having what I have, I chafe no small amount at seeing others have more for paying less (the more so because so many who have benefited from luck fail to acknowledge that they have, in fact, been lucky; no amount of work will allow forward motion where there is no gap in the wall through which to squeeze). And there are other prices I pay to be the person I am than monetary, upon which I will not elaborate here but which I am sure the more astute among my readers–yes, I am referring to you, and you know it–can intuit. There are other paths than that I took, and I think they are likely to be better for more people than not.

I think as much is true for my daughter.

Admittedly, she is only going into fourth grade today. There’s time, I hope, for her to figure things out, and if it is the case that she proceeds as she has been, I’m reasonably certain I’m doing at least decently to help her along that path, making sure the pack she carries is full of good and useful things, even as I know it’s probably heavier than she ought to have to carry. If it isn’t, I can hope she knows 1) that I love her, and 2) that I’m ready to help her along, however I can.

What else is there, really?

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series: Entry 361: City of Dragons, Chapter 11

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A boat-borne message from Reyall to Detozi and Erek discussing the state of messenger birds among the Traders precedes “Flight,” which opens with Sintara still exulting in having flown and killed from the wing. She takes to the skies again, though she feels a pang of panic, from which she has to work to untangle herself. She soon begins to be aware of the strain on her body of flight and makes to land in Kelsingra, but errant winds push her astray, and she lands in the river to be caught by the currents. She feels Thymara cry out, disdaining it and flattered by it at once, and she struggles to shore in the ancient city, if with some injury.

Something’s stewing…
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In Cassarick, Malta carries her child through the storm, reeling from her exertions, and she strives to head downward towards the Tarman. With difficulty, she reaches the foundations of the city, and she achieves the liveship at last. Welcomed by the ship, Malta and her child are taken in by the crew.

Thymara speeds through the streets of Kelsingra, answering to Sintara’s distress and feeling the pull of the memories in the worked stones around her. Reaching the dragon, Thymara is cheered by the report of Sintara’s success, even as she is stricken by her physical condition, and the two make for a shelter that will admit the dragon. Ancestral memories guide the pair along, and Sintara’s presence among the buildings wakens the lingering magic within them in light and warmth, in which Sintara immerses herself with pleasure and Thymara with awe. After a time, Thymara is surprised to be joined by Heeby and Rapskal, and Rapskal notes the changes and strengthening that have come upon both dragon and keeper. He also resumes his pursuit of Thymara, to her annoyance, and she explores more of the city. Rapskal joins her, and, amid their explorations, they fall into an assignation.

Reyn, having been advised of Malta’s presence on the liveship, reaches and boards the Tarman, where Malta relates events to him and notes that their child lives, though he is in dire straits. As Reyn and Malta return to their child, she notes that the liveship is keeping him alive. Leftrin joins them then and demands a report, which begins to be offered by his crew, and Reyn listens greedily to his wife’s words.

The fact that Sintara experiences panic upon crossing a river, even while a-wing, marks an interesting insight into dragon psychology; evidently, Hobb’s dragons can experience PTSD. That a trauma could befall such a creature perhaps strains credulity, except that it seems to have been occasioned by a flood when Sintara and the other dragons could not save themselves as they “ought” to have been able to do. Having experienced flash flooding, albeit not of acidic waters (even if they were somewhat septic, drainage systems being what they are), I well understand the power of such phenomena, and having had my own bit of fun at a place the crossing of which still tightens my chest just a little, I’m strangely sympathetic to Sintara. My affective reading catches me out again.

Too, I find myself sympathizing, affectively, with Malta and Reyn, as well. Again, it’s an issue of experience. My daughter is no Elderling, though I think her marvelous and special, indeed. But she was born before she “ought” to have been, and so she spent some time being assisted in her breathing by outside devices. She’s fine, now, and more than fine (about which I will write soon, I think), but I have felt helpless to give my girl what she needed (as I expect I will again, being who I am), and so I find myself feeling, once again, for fictional characters, despite hearing echoes of others’ words that I am a damned fool (and I onliy paraphrase slightly) for doing so.

One more issue: “ought.” I’ve used it twice in my discussion, both in the context of normalizing things. It’s probably not an ideal use; in the case of the dragons, it could well be read as ableist (insofar as dragons, wholly fictional, can be said to fall under such rubrics), while in the case of my daughter, things seem to have worked out well enough that would “ought” to have been is, in fact, what happened (be it luck or wyrd or some providential hand or whatever). I don’t have a better word ready to hand, which is my problem, but I’m supposed to be trained in and attentive enough to the use of language that I ought–note the lack of quotes on this one–to have a better handle on the words I use and their impact upon others.

So much said, the “ought” with the dragons, no less than the treatment of Thick early on, speaks to a need for disability-studies reading of the Realm of the Elderlings corpus. As I’ve noted before, none of us can do all of the reading that needs to be done, and it may be the case that there has been some treatment of the body of work in the light of disability studies; I’ve not attended to the Fedwren Project in far too long, so there’s doubtlessly stuff of which I’m unaware waiting for me to uncover. (If you know of any, please let me know.)

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References

Flipping through the book again–
I’ve read it before
So many times before–
Deepening the stain on the fore edge
Widening the aging stripe that shows where
My thumb has peeled the leaves back
Searching for something seen once and dimly remembered
So that I can correct the citation

Yes.
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I know I saw it
Somewhere
One phrase on which I can hang the whole thing
I know it’s in there
I just have to find it

Maybe
If I turn just one more page

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Still Running

Legs pumping again
Feet flapping down flatly to the pavement
Radiating back the heat it took in
Under the staring sun

I don’t make it look so nice as that.
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Someday the race will end
But it is not now
Though pushing forward jiggling pillars
Exhausts

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series: Entry 360: City of Dragons, Chapter 10

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Following an exceptionally brief entry in Detozi’s log, “Kidnapped” begins with Malta and Reyn conferring about Leftrin and the Tarman and the message Malta had received. Reyn departs to confer with the captain, leaving Malta to pick her way back to their home with some difficulty. After he does, and as a storm builds, Malta begins to experience contractions and calls out for help.

Foreboding?
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Reyn hustles towards the Tarman in the growing storm, worried about Malta but pressing on from the urgency of his errand. He is able to find Leftrin, and the two confer aboard the liveship. Noting Leftrin’s maneuvering with his crew, Reyn recalls a kinship bond between himself and Leftrin, and the two reminisce briefly before Reyn presses for news of the dragons and their keepers. Leftrin attempts to defer a visit to the Khuprus holdings, and Reyn reflects on his wife’s insights. Leftrin’s niece inserts herself into the discussion, and Leftrin reluctantly accedes to her request and Reyn’s.

Malta continues to struggle to shelter, trying to comfort herself amid the storm as her incipient labor reminds her of the changes to her physiology occasioned by becoming an Elderling. She calls for help again and is answered by a man with a Chalcedean accent who hustles her along to a shelter of which she disapproves.

Reyn chafes at Leftrin’s delays and makes arrangements to hasten their travel to his lodgings. When they arrive thereat, they mark Malta’s absence, and the search for her begins.

In her “rescuer’s” room, Malta continues to undergo labor, and that “rescuer” ducks out. When he returns, he is accompanied, and the two men–Begatsi Cored and Sinad Arich–confer about her as her labor pains continue. Their plan–to harvest Malta and her child and present them as if parts of dragons–is laid out as Malta delivers and attempts to conceal her child. Arich departs, and Begatsi makes to slaughter Malta and her newborn; she takes the chance of attacking him as soon as she can, stabbing him in the throat. At length, she is able to regard her newborn son, and she sorrows at his appearance. Bundling him up, she flees back into the stormy night.

This is not, of course, the first time that Malta has been captured by Chalcedeans; she spends a fair bit of Ship of Destiny in such circumstances, beginning here. It is therefore not a surprise to me, not only because I have read the book before (even if it was a while back), but because I have much more recently reread the earlier-published novel, that Malta has the reactions she does. That Chalced is openly, belligerently misogynist is long-established, not least by Malta’s experience; that it has no real regard for human life, engaging in chattel slavery as it does, is similarly long-established (that part goes back to Assassin’s Apprentice, in fact, if obliquely; it is clearer at the beginning of Assassin’s Quest). The level of depravity involved is not quite as clear–or as deep–in the earlier works, however, and I wonder as I reread the text if Hobb is not reaching for some new sensationalistic overture here or if this is not how Chalced has “always” been.

(Yes, I am aware that I am writing about a fictional place as if it is a real one. Yes, I know it is affective at best, and that things are not at their best. I have been many times accused of not knowing what “the real world” is like–but then, I never have gotten a straight answer from those I’ve asked what “the real world” is.)

(Yes, that is distinct from the MTV reality series. Quotes and no capitals rather than italics and title case.)

If I wanted to read the chapter as a commentary on current concerns–which reading would be doable, certainly; looking at how works speak to times that follow their release is a commonplace, after all–I might note that the presence of a brothel in the Rain Wilds (and presumably more than one, though only one appears in the present chapter) and its easy acceptance or of failure to see the depravity looming in its own chambers can be interpreted as a natural outgrowth of the mercantilist tendencies at work not only in the primary milieu, but also in the real-world (that term again) societies of which that milieu is analogue. While there are certainly many who control wealth in the Rain Wilds, most of that wealth derives from the exploitation of graveyards and the slaughter of nascent children–something that might well be read as mimetic of abortions. (It’s not much of a stretch, really, from a society that quietly but unashamedly practices eugenicist infanticide.)

The question always does arise, of course, when reading fictional analogues of real-world groups of how much is commentary on the source and how much is differentiation from it. Are the practices depicted rebukes of the society upon which the primary milieu is based, or are they deliberate insertions that proceed, perhaps, from necessity within the milieu and which serve to frustrate the one-to-one correspondence between “real” and “fictional” cultures that overly-simplistic readings (and writings!) would suggest?

Such answers exceed the confines of a single blog post, necessarily. The medium does not invite the kind of reflection and interpretation such answers require for their derivation. Length alone becomes an issue; this post is approaching 1,000 words at this point and already seems to drag on, while fuller investigation gets verbose. This paper is a short example at around 2,200 words. But that the answers need to be elsewhere and that they need to have time and space to grow do not mean they do not need to be given.

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Some Few Questions and Answers

Many ask
What’s the point
Why bury meaning between the lines
And cover it with soil and shit
When simply saying what you mean
Is so much better
Faster
Easier
And it’s not like anyone gives a damn
Anyway

Sure. Why not?
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So much may be true
Of course
It does seem that people don’t much care
Turn away from what might make them work a little
Because they work hard all day
Anyway
And it’s nice not to have to work so hard
At every damned thing

But
And there is a but
There’s always a but
What is on the surface washes away
While the ore and oil and other things
Devoutly desired and deemed fit for use
Must be dug out from deep within
And the faces of mountains weather away in time
With only the strongest stone standing to face the staring sun

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Another Riddle, Perhaps?

Someone’s pants are growing tight
Even though they’re eating right
And exercising every night

Decidedly not the pants in question
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It’s not because they eat too much
Nor that they need a surgeon’s touch
Nor from a chair’s comfortable clutch

Their hatband binds in just that way
Their pants constrain more every day
The swelling, see, does not delay

What, then, can cause this kind of thing
Of which no few singers sing
And which too many seek to bring
Upon themselves?

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series: Entry 359: City of Dragons, Chapter 9

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Following a short, sharp rebuke of Kim by Detozi, “Return to Cassarick” begins with Leftrin approaching a Cassarick aware that he is inbound due to the Tarman having encountered fishing boats that raced ahead of them with news for the city. Leftrin’s preparations for return to Cassarick and reporting to the local Council are noted, and the local terrain and conditions are glossed as Leftrin approaches his home port. So are other ships afloat as the Tarman comes into a berth and is moored, and Leftrin issues a series of orders to his crew. And, buoyed by his crew’s confidence, he sets out to collect the fees the Council promised.

This one seems a flighty sort.
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Elsewhere, Malta regards herself and her burgeoning pregnancy as Reyn tends to her. The two tease one another as they confer until interrupted by news of the Tarman‘s return. Thus informed, the pair proceed towards the meeting of the Traders’ Council they know will ensue, proceeding with care due to Malta’s pregnancy.

Leftrin purposefully makes slow progress towards the Council meeting, his dealings along the way summarized. At length, he arrives, and the arrayed Council that greets him is described–including Sinad Arich, whom he remembers meeting and whom he suspects of perfidy. Being recognized, Leftrin makes his initial report and presents his claim for agreed-upon payment. Questions and challenges from the Council follow, some of which are pointed, and Leftrin’s response to certain of them is decidedly legalistic but technically correct, emerging from conference with the close-reading Alise.

The emergent uproar among the Council is quieted and the meeting continues, with more questions for Leftrin that he addresses. Insinuations of foul play follow, and Leftrin bristles at the insult but does not avenge it in the moment. The questions being raised, however, the Council is obliged to determine that Leftrin’s success must be affirmed before payment can be released. In the wake thereof, Leftrin presents a message to Malta, along with a token that affirms his report. Amid the ensuring tumult, he departs.

Leftrin’s legalistic refusal of the Council’s demand for a report, concocted with Alise’s assistance, calls to mind The Merchant of Venice 4.1. For all its anti-Semitism (and there is no shortage of ink spent to the discussion thereof, such that I do not need to contribute to it) the scene points out that a society that binds itself by explicit contracts does well to mind the particulars of those contracts–including what is omitted from them. It also points out, however, that there is peril in relying upon such legal niceties; Shylock, remember, comes to an end he would not prefer for insisting upon the letter of his contract against advice and remuneration. And Leftrin does find himself somewhat stymied by legalistic maneuvering, so there is some small part of that at work.

Whether Leftrin will suffer more…well, in many narratives, he would be certain not to do so, but Hobb does not hesitate to make her characters suffer, and greatly.

One of the things that I and others note in Hobb’s writing is a marked effort towards verisimilitude. It’s something about which she comments (and which, I admit, I often reference). People manipulating legal proceedings and documents is certainly enough of a commonplace, in the United States and elsewhere, that it carries with it the Tolkienian “inner consistency of reality” that fosters Coleridgean willingness to suspend disbelief; that is, it carries verisimilitude. To my mind, the wrangling with the local Council rings true not just of the type, but also of the US-parallel I’ve noted in this reread series I see the Traders’ society as being. Considering the things that I’ve seen happen in local and larger governments and government-like entities, Hobb’s depiction is not just true to life, but true to my life; affective a reading as it is, it is something that makes the text work better for me.

(It’s not a secret that I work with reader-response criticism to a fair degree. I’m not necessarily strongly theoretically grounded in it, to be sure. I’m too far outside academe at this point to be able to maintain such a grounding, given the amount of ongoing reading necessary to do so and the reading-time I must dedicate to other things, not least the primary sourcing for this rereading series. But I digress. Again.)

I don’t imagine, though, that I’m alone in having such a reaction. Hobb’s had enough works published that it’s clear someone keeps buying them, and not only me. While I do have multiple copies of some of her books on my shelf, it’s not enough to keep a publisher producing them. I’m glad there are others doing the work.

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The Work of One Early Afternoon

Sprawled out on the couch
Belt undone and pants unbuttoned in
Summer sunlight sneaking in between the curtains
Where the cat had moved them sticking its head out to look at
Birds hopping across the rocks until they grew too hot
And flittering into the browning branches
One hand fallen on the heart
Breathing in and out in quiet peace

I don’t look nearly so good.
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There is a peace in a quiet time
After the tacos have been eaten and
Cups of coffee drunk
Washing away the cares of the world for a while
Baptism performed by no clergy
But ministry of self to self
Following no order of worship but
Soothing the soul no less for that

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We Have a New Summer Goddess

Aestas may well dance her dance
Auxo joining the choreography
And Damia, too,
And all leave panting those in their audience
And sticky wet with salty fluid
But their performances are of gentler kind than
Has taken up residence in the bleached-white hills
Where brown columns crookedly rise and
Their hangings fade

Like this, yes.
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No stola for her who performs now
No diaphanous gown of clinging gossamer
No translucent tulle that lets things show through
Which many eyes long to see
No organza that covers but refuses to conceal
Oh, no
If she is clad in anything
If anything stands between her and the eye
It is cracking leather
The only thing to match the ways in which
She beats upon the brows and bodies of
Those assembled in her august presence
Early though they might well be

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