A Rumination on My Journaling

I don’t believe I’ve made a secret of keeping a journal. It’s hardly a rare thing for someone to do, of course, and less rare for someone who spends as much time writing as I clearly have and do. Just within the past five years (which is actually a meaningful thing to say at this point, with more than ten years of work in this webspace, as well as years of work in such other places as this and this), I’ve made explicit mention of doing so on multiple occasions: here, here, here, here, here, here, here, here, and here. I’ve written about why I journal, and I’ve drawn things from out of my journals for others to see. I think I’ve managed to bear out the practice in my own experience, and while I acknowledge that what works for me does not necessarily work for others, that it does work for me means that it might well work for others. I am not quite so different from other people, after all.

There are worse ways to spend time.
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One thing I’m not sure I’ve recently noted–and I’ll concede some flexibility with “recent,” here; I know there are some who would not consider 2020 recent to 2025–is that journaling, for me, provides something of an emotional anchor-point. That is to say, I feel better about things and about myself when I keep up with my journal-writing. I do not always keep up with it; I started writing in bound journals, rather than on hole-punched notepads, in 2004, and there are definitely lacunae among the volumes of writing I’ve accumulated in the decades since. I have found over that time that I get…nervous when I have not kept up with my writing; I do not feel as certain. Perhaps it is some analog version of the perception that what is not on social media does not really exist, some script form of “pics or it didn’t happen.” (I know that’s an older quip. I’m not a young man.) Having the written record, even acknowledging that any writing I do reflects my inherent and overt biases, helps me remind myself that I was and am, that things happen and that I and mine were present to experience them, however small our parts in things might well be.

So much said, I do have some difficulty with journaling. Reflecting on the day’s events is good, generally, although it is the case for me that it can also lead to the kind of overthinking that tends towards self-recrimination and the development of a depressive cycle. That is, I run the risk of turning in on myself every time I sit with a pen in hand to go over what happened during the day. I mitigate it by writing more often; when I do so, I have some feeling of accomplishment, which helps stave off sadness, and I tend to write in shorter bursts, so there’s less time to get into a bad headspace. I also mitigate it by writing, generally, according to something of a formula. I discuss first the weather and noting any major events that have come to my attention–and I’ll admit that “major” is as flexible for me as “recent,” here. Then I write about what I learn from my wife about her day, then the same for my daughter. Only after those do I report the events of my own day–and I try not to go into detail about my workday, both because I keep a record of work activities at work and because I do try to keep my “regular” work in its own place. Doing so helps me to keep a sense of myself as myself and not as some economic production unit.

We are, all of us, more than just the work we do. I hope that, for me and mine, the more is also better.

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series, Entry 454: Fool’s Quest, Chapter 32

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Do note that the present chapter discusses torture in some detail.


After commentary regarding proper installation of Skill-pillars, “Travelers” starts with Fitz announcing his decision to leave Withywoods to the household staff, who accept the news easily. Matters are arranged to facilitate that departure with relative ease, and Fitz returns to Buckkeep, learning along the way that the Fool has been found where Fitz had suggested seeking him.

Maybe something like this?
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After arriving back at Buckkeep, Fitz confers with the Fool about his doings, learning that the Fool had gotten lost in the warren of secret passages that permeates Buckkeep. He had gotten lost while seeking more dragon’s blood, thinking to use it to restore more of his body and memories of a Skill-river and the effect of Silver (though not by that name) on dragons. Fitz rebukes his friend, and the two confer about how they will proceed to Clerres, the Fool laying out details he had not previously revealed to Fitz about his return thence and the social structure in place there, the machinations of those in charge of it. Some of the Fool’s sufferings are rehearsed, as well, and Fitz’s resolve against the Servants hardens.

Afterward, Fitz calls on Chade, finding him alone and lucid. Chade notes the effects of his age, not all of which are feigned, and he commends Fitz. He also notes Lant’s desire to accompany Fitz and urges him to allow it; Fitz holds his tongue on the matter. Chade also notes his distrust of Rosemary and her unraveling of his information network, but he still urges Fitz to press on with his own work. To that end, he presents Fitz a pair of exceptionally detailed maps on which he had worked for years.

Fitz returns to his chambers and secrets his gifts therein before responding to a Skill-summons from Nettle and Dutiful. Having made himself presentable, Fitz presents himself, finding the Farseers aside from Chade awaiting him. Arrangements are made for how the prince Fitz is will proceed, and a cover-story is introduced–along with comments about the residents of Kelsingra. The Fool is also discussed, and Fitz calls upon him to announce his intention to proceed to Clerres alone, to the latter’s exceptional upset.

The next days pass with Fitz making final preparations for departure. Kettricken gifts him yet another map, noting quietly her knowledge of how Dutiful came to be. A farewell feast is given, and private farewells are said–some of them brusque, indeed.

The present chapter is a long one, some thirty pages in the printing I’m reading. I am reminded once again that I need to find a cohesive print-run of the Realm of the Elderlings novels to get page-counts for the chapters; I remain convinced that there is something to be found in the relative lengths. O, to have the resources to undertake such a project!

The present chapter also offers more than a few things I like to see in a continuing work. One of them is a reference back to earlier parts of the body of work–in this case, Fitz’s first receipt of prophecy from the Fool. (It is also of interest that it’s just after six years since I treated that part of the corpus; how time flies!) There is a delight in seeing efforts made to maintain continuity across a body of work, to see attention to detail and long reading rewarded in text. I look for such delights, which the present chapter provides at several points.

I also look for the kind of commentary that can be found in the present chapter as the Fool describes the generational machinations of the Servants–“They are tremendously wealthy. They have been corrupt for generations, and they use the prophecies to make themselves ever wealthier. They know what to buy to sell later at a much higher price. They manipulate the future, not to make the world a better place but only to add to their wealth” (627). It may well be an affective reading, but I do find myself in mind of various oligarchies, established and aspiring, I see at work in the world. I am probably not the only one, either, and I think an examination of such commentaries in Hobb may be an addition to my list of scholarly somedays.

My medievalist self takes some interest in the description of Clerres as akin to Mont St. Michel–although I’ve discussed that much previously. Still, that I managed not to miss all of the details in my earlier readings is a comfort, and the partial correspondence remains in place. I wonder, though, if there is another scholarly someday in tracing Arthurian parallels, here; does Fitz castrate some giant, if only obliquely? I’ll have to consider it further as I reread more; it’s been a while.

So much said, the present chapter does a lot of explicatory work. As it is near the end of the novel, I have to read that work as being done to set up the third volume of the trilogy, Assassin’s Fate; I’ll proceed to that text soon, although not as soon as I might like–as I reread, again, I feel again the hunger for the reading that I recall feeling in earlier readings, spanning nearly ten years with Fool’s Quest and longer with other parts of the Realm of the Elderlings novels, that has led me to linger in place for hours, moving nothing other than my eyes except to turn the pages, and to stay awake far longer than the next day’s working demands suggest, taking in the text at once.

It is good to have such feelings.

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A Rumination on Some Recent Reading

I don’t believe I’ve made anything resembling a secret of the reading that I have done and am doing. In addition to the stuff I read for my day-job–gotta love the US tax code!–I do a fair bit of reading for my side-line work of writing lesson plans. (Teachers, if you need some support with this, let me know; my rates are reasonable, and I’ve been in the classroom enough to have an idea of how things might actually work.) Less common of late has been reading for other reasons, whether for study (outside of work, for which I do have some continuing education requirements that I’ve been addressing reasonably well) or for pleasure. In the past couple of weeks, I’ve been trying to correct that last, squeezing in some reading time as I can.

What a place to be!
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It’s admittedly not easy. I don’t have the time to devote to outside reading that I used to; when I lived in New York City, I had an hour-long commute to work, yes, but most of that was on a train that would allow me to do at least some reading. When I was in academe as a full-time thing, it was expected that I would do a lot of reading; it was something for which I could easily justify making time, especially since I was making a (faltering, inept) go of being an English professor. Before that, well, I was a student, and study–or what looked like study–was expected and encouraged, and I did not fail to meet those expectations or to accept that encouragement. But since then, there have been other, more pressing and more appropriately pressing demands on my time, and so I have let go of many things I used to treasure in favor of other things that I value more.

I do not regret the choice to do so, of course (although I do regret spending as much time scrolling social media as I have, turning to ease to numb myself rather than to addressing myself to text to improve myself–and even pleasure reading offers some self-improvement, building facility with and stamina for dealing with text as it does). I would make it again if it presented itself; I expect that it will present itself again, in some form or another, and I will have the opportunity to suit my deeds to my words. But a thing not regretted can still be lamented, and I am aware that I am lessened by my not having been better about having a book in my hand than I have been.

I am, as noted, trying to correct that. There are some times that I could read that I didn’t, and I’m trying to put them to better use. For example, when I am on the treadmill at the gym–I do still try to go to the gym several times a week; my health demands it, as does my intention to push back as far as I can the day that I can’t pick my daughter up anymore–I can read through some book or another I pull down onto my phone. Unless they’re for work, they’re usually not “deep” reading–there have been some exceptions, which I have greatly appreciated–but any reading is helpful reading. (Yes, even the thinly-veiled pornography. Negative examples are useful.) And it’s better for me to do that than to stare mindlessly at recaps of last night’s sports events that I can’t hear and aren’t captioned, so…better use of my time.

I suppose I ought to ruminate more fully and with greater focus on the readings I do in that venue or in similar circumstances. Much as I have enjoyed reading throughout my life, I find that I very much like to write (and I hope that that liking shows through); it’s good to have more about which to do it.

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About the End of Last Week

I mentioned last week that I would be taking a couple of days off from my day-job to spend with my wife and daughter as they went around and did things. I mentioned, too, that I might make some account of what happened when I was with them. I try to suit my deeds to my words, in token of which, the following:

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On Wednesday, a week ago, my wife, Ms. 8, a friend of hers, and I drove into Austin to visit the Texas State Cemetery. It is a relatively modestly sized piece of land, placed around State Highway 165 between Navasota and Comal, 7th and 11th, and it is not full; there is still plenty of open space waiting to accept the honored dead of the Lone Star State. But there are many such dead entombed or otherwise memorialized on the grounds, though I was surprised that President Houston is not among them; the last person (so far) to walk on the moon, Capt. Gene Cernan (a Chicago native but sometime resident of Kerrville), is, as are many late governors of the state (including the often-missed Ann Richards). I found myself moved by some of the displays there, which is fitting enough.

Thursday had us take care of a few errands; there are some things that can’t be done on a weekend in a small town, and since we already had the time off scheduled, it made sense to address them when we did. Friday, though, we made our way back to Austin–my wife, Ms. 8, her friend, and I. (Now, normally, outside of tax season, I’m off on Fridays; I don’t open the office. But given that I’d taken a couple of days off for family, I think I can count it.). There, we toured the Museum of Illusions. It was a decent enough time, although I think I prefer Seismique in Houston, which we visited a few years back; a lot of it has to do with the fact that many of the installations at the Museum of Illusions require filtering through cameras, such that my wife comments it ought to be renamed the Museum of the Hyperreal.

From there, we visited Purrfecto Cat Lounge, spending half an hour in which I drank a lukewarm cup of not-good coffee while my wife, my daughter, and her friend reveled in the attentions of several cats. One snuggled in to sleep on my wife, while my daughter collected a cuddle-puddle of four cats, and her friend got to pet several others. My shoe came under assault by one frisky kitten, but only briefly; other game attracted its attention soon after.

After, we put in at Freddo, about which my wife had learned while looking for things to do with our daughter. The business is hosted in a Victorian-era home that was, when moved from its original location near the Texas Capitol, the largest house to have been moved (or so I am told); the building is beautiful, and the grounds are commodious despite the busyness of the intersection where they stand. The food was pretty good, too, which is always a help, and my wife and I got the joy of a brief conversation with some people traveling through. So that was nice.

In all, it was a decent use of time. Getting back to something like the usual routines after has taken some doing, as might be thought, but it’s nice to have had a little bit of time away from them.

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series, Entry 453: Fool’s Quest, Chapter 31

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Following an excerpt from Bee’s dream journal, “Loose Ends” opens with Fitz leafing through the same in a sleepless night, rehearsing some of his earlier follies (notably this and perhaps this) and resolving to proceed, but with more deliberation. That deliberation pushes him to return to Withywoods to settle matters there, something to which the Fool objects angrily.

It beckons…
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Fitz takes Perseverance with him when he goes, and the guard company commanded by Foxglove accompanies the pair. Their progress towards Withywoods is glossed and uneventful, and Fitz is welcomed back with reports of events there since his last visit. He secures what had been Bee’s room and directs that Shine’s and Lant’s belongings be forwarded to Buckkeep. And in the evening, he considers his course of action, finding himself unexpectedly in communion with Nettle through the Skill.

The next morning sees Fitz begin to learn from the household staff more of how events had fallen out since he was last on site. He learns also, to his surprise, that his treatment of Ellik and other Chalcedean raiders has been made known to the folk of Withywoods by way of Perseverance, who reports sadly on the state of his own mother. Foxglove is also apprised of matters and apologizes for her earlier cool treatment of Fitz.

Fitz spends more time putting things in order, his efforts glossed until he comes to sorting his personal effects. Those receive more detail, few as they are, as he arranges some and seeks out others that he knows Bee had secreted away. As he goes about that work, Fitz is overwhelmed by grief, prompting another Skill-sending from Nettle. As they confer, she notes that the Fool has gone missing, and Fitz offers some recommendation of where he might be found. Too, the two commiserate, after which Fitz outfits himself for the work he means to do.

Outfitted, Fitz reads Bee’s writings, finding himself often moved to tears by them. The next morning, Fitz takes a few things to Bee’s hiding place and locks it before taking his leave.

My background of media consumption shows itself, certainly, in one reaction I had to rereading the chapter. As Fitz equips himself for his trip to Clerres, I was reminded of nothing so much as Batman. The belt full of pouches of weapons and other accoutrements, weapons secreted in other places on his person, and the like all seem very much in the line of Bruce Wayne and his clandestine exploits–although, of course, Fitz is not so skilled as the Dark Knight, and he has little compunction about killing even on a good day.

That little bit of old nerdery aside, it is good to see that Fitz can, occasionally, learn from his mistakes. Although he certainly has the impulse to charge ahead (and, as I read affectively, I find it understandable; I think I would want to charge off after someone who took my daughter, and I am, well, me), he manages to restrain it in favor of making more careful preparations and undertaking careful pursuit. Admittedly, the lesson comes late for him; he reflects on earlier follies, and the fact that they are plural is an indication that he is not always the best of students. His more recent expedition, even in the present volume, suggests as much more forcefully. But the lesson seems, at last, to have taken, and that is good to see.

I don’t know that the present chapter offers a whole lot in terms of scholarly interest; it seems a narrative need, an accounting-for of some of the titular loose ends rather than any thing unto itself. There are a few offhanded comments about religion to be found, and those might be of some interest if there is some revisitation of an earlier project of mine. I’m not averse to doing such a thing, as might well be noted, and I’ve as much as declared my intent to extend at least one earlier project already; I might as well do another one, too, adding to my scholarly somedays. Too, there might be something to do regarding torture–which the present chapter references without presenting directly–as that is a recurring theme in Hobb’s work (not only in the Realm of the Elderlings novels; the Soldier Son series, which I will address at some point, has its share of such, as do some of the “peripheral” works under Hobb’s name). I’m not sure if and how I might address that, though, but there may well be time for me to consider it…and if I don’t, I’m sure someone else will.

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A Rumination on 6 June Observances

I‘ve written on this date in previous years (notably here and here), and it occurs to me as I look back over the records I have in this webspace (nearly ten years of them, now!) that it is a bit odd that I’ve only written as many times as I have on the date. As with a similar recent observance, however, I don’t know that I have anything to add to already-existing discussions of the events commemorated today; I’m not a historian whose work covers the 1940s, and I’ve already told my parents “Happy 44th Anniversary,” so that brings me more or less to the end of topical commentary.

Apropos, I think.
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Not that that will stop me from rambling on about something else. So much should be obvious by this point.

I have known a few people who took part in the events 81 years past, although I cannot claim to have known them well. Growing up where I did, it was unavoidable; growing up when I did, “known them well” was not something very much available. I cannot say with certainty what many of them would think about today, although I can guarantee that many of them would find much fault with how things are–and I’d even agree with some of them. (Not all, of course, but my curmudgeonly self doesn’t agree with anyone on everything–not even my curmudgeonly self.)

One point that I recall having heard voiced and with which I agree is appreciation that there has not been such a thing happen since as happened then. There have been fights, conflicts, wars since, to be sure; there are still many of each ongoing. But the scale and scope…those have not been equaled, so far as I know, and I do not think that such a thing could be wholly hidden anymore. (Whether that’s a good thing or not, I cannot say; most likely, like most things, it’s both.) That there has not been so large a thing, that so many have not had to face such things at once, I have been told by some who were there is a good thing; I cannot argue the point, and I do not care to try.

I have ideas about the lingering effects of such events. I have not done the work to bear them out fully; I do not have access to the resources that would allow me to do so, and I am not sure how many such still exist or would continue to exist long enough for me to be able to find them. The life I live now has many attractions, but access to research apparatus is not one of them, not for most things, not really. But I know that at least some of those attractions are results of what happened 81 years ago today, just as I know a great many of them result from what happened 44 years ago today, and insofar as those are true, I am grateful for what took place–even as I share the hope that the earlier kind of thing never happens again.

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Another Rumination on Vacation

I‘ve commented before–there are examples here and here–about the relative rarity of my taking time away from work and going anywhere that isn’t running some kind of errand or some work-related thing. (I’ve actually got one of those trips planned for the fall.) It’s still a rarity, to be sure, although it is becoming less of one; I am working at getting better at resting, which I know is a strange thing to read, particularly when written by someone who has an inside job with little heavy lifting after having made an attempt at living one of the nerdiest lives imaginable. (It is possible to be a bigger nerd than a literature professor, but it’s not easy.) But it is true; I have not been good about letting work stay at work or about taking time with my family over getting just a little bit more work done, and I am working to get better about that.

Still doesn’t quite apply, though…
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My wife is better about it than I am–so much so, in fact, that she has taken the whole week off from work, making time to spend with our daughter, Ms. 8, in this short stretch between the end of her school year and the beginning of a series of camps and workshops that will take up her summer. (She’s got several weeks of theatre camps and a week of Girl Scout camp coming up, Ms. 8. It will keep her busy–and in the right kind of trouble.) Already, the pair of them have gone to a nearby water park, and Ms. 8 has gotten to have a more local excursion that still seems to have suited her well, and I’m glad of both of them. My wife works harder than I do–she’s got her own job, and she has to put up with me and my stolidity–and so deserves the chance to do some of what she wants to do, and I naturally think my daughter should have it all (she also works for things; of that, I make sure).

Like I said, though, I’m improving. I wasn’t able to give the whole week to it, but I have taken off a couple of working days this week to spend with my wife and daughter. Per the former, we’ll be taking day trips over the next few days, revisiting some things that she and Ms. 8 have enjoyed and exploring some new things that they’ve found of interest. For my part, I’m more or less along for the ride; I’ve not improved to the point that I can actually seek out stuff to do that isn’t some new piece of work or another, which I know is not necessarily the best sign by which to navigate a life. But I’m happy to drive them around, saving them the trouble, and I’m trying to be open to the experiences they’ve got planned. If nothing else, it will be good to be around them as they make good memories together.

I’ll see about having something to say about my part in all of this.

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series, Entry 452: Fool’s Quest, Chapter 30

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A commentary on how Nettle revitalized the corps of Skill-users in the Six Duchies precedes “Prince FitzChivalry.” The chapter, proper, begins with Fitz returning to his chambers briefly before making himself presentable for an audience with King Dutiful. As he does so and awaits the audience, Fitz muses on the presence of servants and their ministrations.

You know there’s a joke here…
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Fitz is admitted to the king’s presence, the chamber described as he enters it. Dutiful first thanks Fitz for recovering Shine. He then reminds Fitz that he occupies a place in the government of the Six Duchies, one that requires the king be able to trust him to act as a prince of the realm, and he bids him report, in full, his actions. Fitz does so “and left out no detail” (576). In response, Dutiful relives Fitz of his assassin’s duties, which takes Fitz aback.

Being dismissed from his audience with the king, Fitz stalks out without clear purpose, only to be found by Spark and informed that he has been assigned new quarters, the Heliotrope apartments where Patience had formerly dwelt with Lacey. Spark adds that she and the Fool have also been re-quartered, the Fool returning to the rooms he had had as Lord Golden.

From that meeting, Fitz calls upon Chade, finding him in his own chambers and attended by Shine. Fitz is again taken aback, seeing the decline that has afflicted Chade in seeming haste. Conversation between Shine and Fitz is tense, but it soon turns to Shine’s latent talent with the Skill. Chade unlocks that talent, prompting outside intrusion, Nettle soon arriving to take matters in hand and sending Fitz on his way.

Reluctantly acceding to the Skillmistress’s command, Fitz leaves Chade’s rooms and seeks out his own new ones, inspecting them thoroughly and carefully. Finding little to keep him there, Fitz seeks out the Fool, who is upset about the relocation and the interference from Rosemary. Fitz is able to offer the Fool some comfort, and he makes some recommendations for how the Fool might proceed. Beginning to do so, Fitz recalls some of Patience’s wisdom, although he is jarred by how he is enacting it.

Time passes, and Fitz begins to plan how he will proceed, and he takes steps to enact his plans. Most of them take the form of separating himself from his attachments, ensuring that he is not needed where he is so that he can go to where he is needed. How the others in Buckkeep fare is noted, and plans are made to question Shine further about events. Nettle and a reluctant Kettricken assist with the questioning, and useful information is uncovered. Lant is less helpful, but Riddle manages to be of help with him.

At length, Fitz begins to recover his Skill, training it back up as he continues to retrain his body. More of his affairs are settled and those in his care committed to other caretakers. The Fool adopts another new guise, Mage Gray from Satine. Dutiful takes some pleasure in Fitz’s evident integration into the life of the nobility, and, over a conversation between them and Chade, the latter reveals some unexpected insights.

The present chapter prompts another of my many affective readings. Dutiful’s decree removing Fitz from assassin’s work–not only reassigning him, but forbidding him from them–is a career-adjustment that is not unfamiliar to me. I’ve written about it a few times, I think (this is an easy example; it links back to others, as well). There is quite a bit of unease involved in leaving behind a career for which one has trained for decades, even when that career has not been entirely or even largely fulfilling; there’s a lot of identity constructed in such training and execution (yes, the pun is intentional), and so there is a lot of existential uncertainty involved in leaving it behind. There’s more in being forced out of it, and it remains an uneasy adjustment even years later, because it’s not always if ever possible to leave such a background behind entirely (as I’ve noted, too, here and likely elsewhere). Once again, then, I find myself feeling for Fitz, which I still know is unacceptably sentimental but which I persist in doing, regardless.

The present chapter also offers an interesting little bit of humor, the backhanded kind of thing I’ve commented on before and continue to enjoy finding (again? I hope so). The chambers Fitz is given, the ones formerly inhabited by Patience when she had come to Buckkeep after Chivalry’s death, carry the name of a plant that seems to have originated in the Americas (per Luebert, Hilger, and Weigend, here; I do still try to work from good information, you know) and that is toxic to people and animals (per NC State University, here), with the addition of being more dangerous when not in blue than when in it (per New South Wales, here, despite comments about nativeness). Even if it is a weak support, it remains a support for some ideas that I have had. Too, Fitz has not always been healthy to be around, although he seems to be deadlier when he is not wearing Buck blue than when he is. Again, it’s a backhanded thing, but that there is something there to look at is a pleasure.

On the topic of naming: I remarked some years back that Fitz’s very name indicates fundamental failures in the chivalric ideal. In some ways, the present chapter motions towards Dutiful’s recognition of such; he comments, among other things, that the Farseers have failed Fitz in assigning him to the assassin’s duties in which he had been trained by royal command. (To his credit, he also includes Chade among those who have been wronged.) But even that is a failure on Dutiful’s part and a gesture towards the failures of chivalry; for one, the king does not deny the need for such services, glossing over the fact of his retention of Rosemary in the assassin’s role, and, for another, the litany of services that Dutiful recites to Fitz as things for which he is grateful are only possible because Fitz was trained as he was and had his familial connections. It is a peculiar myopia, and while it may well be in keeping with Dutiful’s own name that he feels and acts out of an obligation to his older cousin, it is perhaps not so much in it that he would remove from particular activity someone who has been a resource in that particular activity. To my eye, Fitz continues to be an emblem of the failures of the chivalric ideal, and I think a fuller explication of that will be another scholarly someday for me.

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Not Quite Another Rumination on Graduation

It’s the time of year again when I think about graduations, rites of passage in a set of subcultures in which I participated for a long time (and still have some part, somehow still hanging on despite the many changes to my life and work that have occurred in the intervening years). I’ve written on the subject a time or two, I know, and I’ve written on similar observances before, as well.

It’s where my kid is…
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It’s more toward the latter of them that my thoughts turn as I sit, pecking away at my keyboard to make the pixels shift and dance on the screen in front of me. My daughter, Ms. 8, has just completed her fifth grade year. In our local school district, that completion means that she has finished elementary school and will move on to middle school (here, grades 6-8). At the same time, a number of her teachers and administrators are heading off, not for summer sessions and continued schooling, but for other jobs entirely, and there are changes upcoming at the school to which she is bound; a new campus is set to open with the coming school year, with all that entails. But I’ve talked about that before, and recently; I’ll not rehash it (much) here.

I will note, though, that there have been many things marking the coming shift, the leaving behind of childhood as childhood (because there is a difference between being in an environment where most of a peer-group is prepubescent and being in one where more people than not are in the grips of hormonal upset). Ms. 8’s school did a good job of offering closure to the outgoing elementary schoolers, sending them off with hope and acknowledgment; I am glad that she got to have such things, and I am glad, too, that she is the kind of person who is open to receiving them. Not all do, and not all are, not by any means, and some of those who say they aren’t in the moment say so only because they don’t, or don’t fully.

I hope that Ms. 8 looks back on this ending with fondness. I hope that she continues to feel, as she has told me she does now, that she is loved, not only by her parents, but by those in whose community she finds herself. And I hope that she continues to be so much herself as she has hitherto been–because she’s a pretty damned good person, and I’m proud to have her as a daughter.

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A Robin Hobb Rereading Series, Entry 451: Fool’s Quest, Chapter 29

Read the previous entry in the series here.
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Following a commentary on a semi-judicial proceeding, “Family” begins with Fitz and company returning to Buckkeep Castle, their progress to that point described. Fitz does not take the journey well, and he does not receive the news of a royal summons well when it reaches him. He takes some time to respond to it and appear as bidden.

The sign of mourning…
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When Fitz reports as ordered, he finds the Farseers in array awaiting him, as well as Hap Gladheart and the children of Burrich and Molly, their arrangement described. Soon after, the Fool is led in, as well, and Dutiful calls proceedings to order. The announcement is made to the family that Bee is lost, and Fitz is called upon to report how events have come to that pass. He does, in detail, falling to his knees as he does so. After, the family begins to grieve, and Fitz is surprised to find his kin reaching out to comfort him amid his grief, feeling himself to blame for all that has befallen.

After a too-brief time of offering up shorn hair in token of grief and commiserating with Fitz, the assembled Farseers and others begin to disperse. Dutiful leaves Kettricken and Fitz last, and Kettricken refuses to allow Fitz to vanish once again, bidding him escort her to her rooms. He does so, and she tends to him, dosing him with a soporific and noting the justice of it.

Fitz wakes in Kettricken’s bed in the morning after commiserating with her in the night, and they part. Fitz proceeds thence through the hidden passages of the castle to rejoin the Fool, with whom he confers about how to proceed. Their talk is interrupted by the delivery of a message summoning Fitz to another meeting with Dutiful, and as they part, Fitz and the Fool make mention of the latter’s lost fingertips.

The prefatory materials in the present chapter present another of the callbacks to earlier materials that my nerdy self appreciates seeing. The prefatories make reference to the use of a duel before the Witness Stones to determine justice, something long established as practice in the Six Duchies (see here). In my comments on the early depiction of the practice, I do raise some questions about it; the practice of judicial dueling is fraught, at best. Consequently, with the present chapter’s prefatory materials adding to those questions (one Kitney Moss, accused of murder, maintained his innocence despite appearing to be on the losing end of a judicial duel before the Stones, and dashed into them, inadvertently using one as a Skill-pillar despite a lack of training or understanding, and disappeared, with later circumstances bearing out his innocence), I find myself pleased; even within the milieu, the accuracy of the judicial duel is suspect, and I remain egotist enough to like to be proven right (usually; there have been times I’ve wished I’d been wrong).

Similarly, I appreciate being right about Dwalia’s glove from before. I am less pleased, however, that that pleasure reminds me that it’d been too long since I’d read the book; I’m running into things and only dimly remembering them, if at all, and then taking delight as if I’ve discovered something that I’d already seen before.

Also similar to the preface in referring back to the earlier parts of the Realm of the Elderlings corpus is the shearing and burning of hair as a token of grief. It is mentioned in the first depicted interaction between Fitz and the Fool, if memory serves (see here), and it does reappear throughout the series (as noted here). Again, my nerdy self delights in such consistencies, which I know are not easy to maintain across decades and series and thousands of pages; that they are, here and elsewhere in the Realm of the Elderlings corpus, is part of why I keep coming back to Robin Hobb, again and again.

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